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PC: Pinterest 

Are you a pinner?

I sure am!

I go on Pinterest daily.

It's kinda my guilty pleasure.

I love scrolling through the pretty photos,

getting great ideas,

dreaming of gorgeous home and sometimes it's just the inspiration I need for the day.

So I though I'd post some of my favorite things I've been looking at on Pinterest lately. 

1. How fun does this look?!

2. I really really want this dress. And I want to twirl around in it too. 

3. THESE LOOK SO GOOD.

4. This wedding photo is just darling.

5. This table setting just makes me want to relive our honeymoon days in Hawaii. Sigh.

6. Why can't this be my dinner?

7. Someone teach me how to bake these beauties!

8. I think open shelving is so cool.

9. I need to go wherever this is. 

10. Goal: host a donut party.

11. Another goal: get hair back to this length, pronto.

12. Easter's almost here people! Start planning your egg designs!

So yeah, some of my pins lately. 

I spared you the dozens of baby photos I've been pinning a lot lately too, 

you're welcome. 

I may or may not be baby hungry at the moment. 

Anywho, these are NOT my photos, and all credit goes to good ole Pinterest. 

I just wanted to share some of the pins I've been loving on lately. 

If ya wanna follow my account,

{I also pin lots of food, so you're welcome for that too}

just click right here.

Have a lovely night people!

xoxo

lovely and lame lists

Happy Thursday Everybody!

Hope you're day is going well.

We're just over here hibernating until Spring..

loving this literal 1 degree temperature!

So remember when I started doing my lovely and lame list here?

I kinda break up life's pro's and con's into two lists:

the lovely list

the lame list.

So here it goes!

LOVELY: 

- This is my day off!

- Zak is home studying with me.

- We're listening to The Theory of Everything Soundtrack- if you don't have it, get it now.

- Not too much on the to-do list today.

- I get another three day weekend, yipee!

- Worked with a national TV network this week.

- There's a diet 7-UP waiting for me in the fridge.

- I'm going to work on some future projects today- can't wait to share them with you!

- Another investigative story I worked on for months aired last night.

- Before bed Zak put on the Interstellar soundtrack {we've obviously been into Oscar soundtracks lately} and Romie started going crazy listening to it, and we literally couldn't stop laughing. There were tears running down our faces. We haven't laughed that hard is a long time. 

LAME:

- It's literally 1 degree outside.

- I worked 15 hours straight on Tuesday.

- We can't go on long walks with Romie, because it's too cold.

- I did a story with a man in desperate need of help. He's blind and deaf, and his guide dog is losing his sight as well. I hope my story will inspire others to help this man and his dog.

- I might have shed a tear while interviewing him.

- Emails from viewers about other puppy mills in NE, it breaks my heart that those facilities continue to operate. Especially on days like today when it's deadly cold.

- I wish there was more I could do to help some of the people I do stories on.

- My dad's birthday was this week, and I wasn't there to celebrate with him. 

xoxo

my secret to life.

I saw this photo on Pinterest the other day and it really resonated with me. 

I've always struggled with anxiety.

And back in August I felt like something else was wrong. 

I hated going to the grocery store.

I dreaded being alone.

I wouldn't be excited about things, that I would normally be looking forward to. 

Even on my birthday, after Zak went all out with surprises and gifts, 

I just wasn't feeling happy.

It was a terrible feeling. 

Well fast forward a couple weeks.

I talked with Zak about how I was feeling and I was tip-toeing around the "d word."

Depression. 

I just kept saying I don't feel happy..

and it's more than anxiety. 

Well the medical student he is, 

he started checking some of the side affects of the medication I was taking-

and it turns out depression is one.

So I stopped taking it.

And things got better.

Much better.

However, during that time I was searching for things to make me feel better.

Anything.

And I didn't want to admit to my feelings so I would search for remedies. 

I read that going outside, and getting some fresh air helps.

It sounds silly, I know. 

But each morning starting in August Romie and I would wake up,

and head out the door for a nice long walk. 

And during that time I would pray.

It's about a 20 minute walk, and I would use it to worship.

And everyday it started becoming our routine. 

We'd wake up, go for our walk and I'd pray my heart out.

And after days turned into weeks, and weeks turned into months, and summer ended we continued to go for our walks and I would pray. 

And even after the depression went away, 

we would do our morning "prayer walk'

as I would call it. 

Those walks were essential to me. 

I believe that prayer is more powerful than statistics. 

That miracles do happen.

And when I give my worries to God, it brings me peace, and truly puts me in a mindset that gets me ready for the day. 

I've never talked about this on the blog,

but after I saw that picture I thought I needed to. 

It started as just walking my dog as a hopeful remedy to get me out of a rut, 

and has turned into a life necessity for me. 

And let me be clear, it did not cure my depression.

At all. 

I would still be depressed if I was taking that medication,

no matter how much I prayed.

But it did help me in other ways. 

Many many other ways.

Before this I would pray each day,

but this was just something I think I needed.

A time without distraction, a time to breath in the fresh air,

and start my day right. 

So anywho, a couple things I want to get out of the post.

A. Never ever be ashamed or embarrassed of the way you're feeling. You're not alone. It happens to lots of people. And it might be completely out of your hands. I would still be feeling this way if I hadn't said something to Zak and stopped taking the medication. Talk with someone if you are feeling down. Heck, and if you don't feel like you have anyone- you got me!

B. This is my secret to a great life. I pray my heart out. But honestly, it's no secret- many people believe this. I just wanted to share my story with you.

C. Anxiety sucks. But praying helps me get those nasty thoughts and feelings out of my head. 

So there you have it!

I hope if anything, someone reads this and doesn't feel alone. 

Depression shouldn't be tip-toed around. It sucks, it's real and it happens to lots of people,

including myself. 

I hope you have a wonderful rest of your day!

xoxo

Indecisiveness.

Happy Thursday!

I have the oddest schedule this week and don't go into work till 5 PM today-

no complaints here!

I get to hangout with the husband all day, well kinda, he's working on school stuff. 

He starts school on August 11th, which is right around the corner. 

I can't even explain to you how nice it's been this summer having him all to myself,

I'm going to be a little bummed when he goes back. 

But, everyone says first year of medical school is the worst time wise, so I'm not too worried about our schedule.

This past week I actually had five continuous days off {I have no clue how I lucked out with that}

and it was perfection. 

It was just us two, doing whatever we wanted. 

No errands, no chores, no worries.

From being served breakfast in bed, day dates to the movies, finishing Divergent {I know we're a little late on that one}, eating at our favorite Mexican food spot, cooking homemade pasta with friends, no social media and just ignoring the outside world and all of our responsibilities, it was pure bliss. 

And just what we needed before he starts school again. 

It's crazy to think we're already two years into this long process, and there are still so many unknowns.

I mean, for all we know we could be back in Phoenix this time next year {fingers crossed).

And not just unknowns for his schooling, but for my career too. 

I constantly go back and forth on what I want to do everyday. 

Literally, Zak hears me talk about it daily.

Poor guy.

If someone asked me, "What's your dream job?"

I don't know what I'd say. 

It used to be something in the TV news world, but now I'm there and I don't know if it's so dreamy anymore. 

Don't get me wrong, I enjoy what I do, the people I work with and my station.

It's a really fun job. Stressful, yet fun. And different! Very different. 

But there's a tons of other things I want to try too. 

I mean, heck I'd love to teach spin classes, work for J Crew, start my own videography production company, become a mom, open an animal shelter, and the list could go on and on and on and on. 

Sometimes I don't know if television news is where I want to stay forever, but then other days I don't want to do anything else.

Indecisiveness is horrible! 

I change my mind on what I want to do all. the. time. 

I do know however, that I'm extremely grateful for a supportive husband that takes all my crazy ideas and helps turn them into realities. 

Really, he's the best. 

I have some fun thoughts of what I might want to do in the future, but I'm just holding on tight right now to see how my current work life pans out. 

Making decisions can be the hardest thing to do sometimes, especially when there are so many unknowns. 

I gotta just trust in the Lord's plan and timing. A reminder I need to tell myself everyday. 

Found some quotes to try and help my make up my mind {you know, find some cheesy inspiration} on what to do, but I instead just questioned them, whoops. 

But what if you love multiple things, how do you choose?!

Well what if I want my family to be the largest part of my life?!

So that means Zak and I should just go runaway to Hawaii and have little beach babies?

xoxo!

goals.

I found this quote and though I'd share it.

It's a new favorite of mine. 

I have a few goals I'm working on right now, and this is such a great reminder. 

xoxo